After the recent publicity I’ve been asked what’s next for me in regards to my personal life and little farm.
For the past several years the thought of leaving my property gave me an immediate panic attack. I couldn’t imagine not having this particular piece of land with the hardwoods and pond I’ve grown so fond of. They feel almost like old friends who’ve been through a lot with me. I’ve lived here longer than any place I’ve ever lived during my adult and even throughout much of my childhood life. Moving has been in my blood and a part of who I’ve always been.
Over the past several months I realized I won’t die if I leave this land. A lot of my anxiety came from thinking I’d have to leave my animals and peace behind. The truth is my desires have expanded and my little five acres was always meant to be a stepping stone to something else.
I’ve had an interest as well as an extreme intimidation with raising bees. But if there’s anything my past can teach me it’s that I don’t really pay much attention to my fears. Fortunately, my desires are too strong to be kept down for long.
Stinging insects have always freaked me out. When I first moved here I thought I’d be totally zen and “be one” with the stinging insects – mostly thinking of the wasps. As it turns out, I wildly miscalculated their desire to be at peace with me. After being stung by red wasps I’ve had an all out war with them ever since. Red wasps are assholes but bees are a different story. I both fear and adore them.
Lately my farm dream has expanded to wanting a larger piece of land where I can grow flowers, keep bees and maybe start an organic tea company. Since honey, flowers and tea are three of my favorite things I think it’s a natural next step.
Of course, I have zero interest in getting rid of any of my animals. I’ll keep my small herd of dairy goats, turkeys and chickens.
In regards to my personal life, I signed with a literary agency in NYC and love my agent. She has me working on a memoir. It’s certainly another personal challenge to complete that.
I’m excited to be a part of an upcoming documentary about redefining the American Dream. It’s from some of the team responsible for award-winning documentaries such as Sicko, Bowling for Columbine and Fahrenheit 911. It’s about a subject that’s close to my heart so I’m really looking forward to this. You can find out more about the movie here: http://americandreamthemovie.us/
Other than that I no longer really plan anything. Planning life hasn’t worked out for me in the past. So for now I’ll continue to sift through whatever life brings my way and try to enjoy it to the fullest.